I'm Trying To Get In A Lifetime Of Hugs In Less Than Five Years.

There is absolutely nothing I love more than cuddling with my son. I love holding him close and smelling his sweet baby scent. I love the way my heartbeat slows and my entire body fills with beautiful energy. It's pure momma lovin' bliss. What's not momma lovin' bliss, is knowing soon my son will be totally grossed out by the thought of sitting in his mommy's lap for cuddle time.

<Insert momma meltdown>

When I think about this loss of cuddle time, I find myself holding my son a little tighter, and for longer. I find myself trying to get a lifetime of hugs in before he turns five.

It's total crap that I only get a short time in my son's life to hold him tight for as long as I want. It's not fair that the beautiful moments of affection we share throughout the day, will be gone before I know it. I'm dreading the day I go to hug my son, only to get the hand out stopping me followed by, "Mom! Gross."

Damn that day!P

It seems like five was the magical age for my nephews to not want to be held during movies, or happily hug me when I came and went. Now, at 7 and 8 years old, they run like hell when they see me coming for hugs and kisses. Not that it stops me from chasing them all over the house and then clobbering them with hugs and kisses when I catch them. Sadly, I know this will be gone soon too.  Soon, it will be creepy of me to chase them for cuddles. I will have no choice but to learn to love the ass out hugs, and take them when I can get them.

I know this will be the case with my son at some point too.

I think about how it must suck even worse for dads, since their time to hug and cuddle seems to be cut even shorter. I might be wrong, but it does seem like after four, my nephews were only going to their dad for comfort after a fall, or fight with their sibling. Whereas before, they would crawl in daddy's lap whenever it was free.

 I know it will kill FTD; he loves cuddling with Ollie as much as I do.
While I know I will not go hug-less after my son's fifth birthday, the cuddles will slow down and become few and far between as he gets older. In order to not completely go mental over this, everyday I try to get in a lifetime of cuddles, kisses and hugs. Everyday, on many many many occasions, I hold my son tight and tell him I love him, so in a few years when he is completely grossed out by momma cuddles, I will know I didn't waste one chance to experience one of the most beautiful gifts of motherhood; holding my child tight and telling him how much I love him.

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G. Jameson said...

Appreciate every moment with your little one! My children are teenagers now and hugs and kisses are forbidden words!

Unknown said...

Hold on don't give up just yet. We have a 17 y/o that hates to be touched. Yep chase that one down. We also have a 12 y/o that crawls right up into our laps.. chair... arms and demands cuddles every night at bed time. So hold out some hope....

April McCormick said...

REALLY??? 12?? YAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! I just don't know what I would do without my daily cuddles! Thanks, Raymanda!!!

Nathalie said...

My husband always says he will have no issue embarassing our son with hugs and kisses when he is older. I know the day is coming when we get pushed away, enjoying the now!

Quirky Chrissy said...

My godson is 9 going on 60, but he still hugs me like he hasn't seen me in a decade every time.

Foggy Mommy said...

This made me tear up! I have a one-year-old son and the thought of not having cuddle time anymore makes me sad. I try to cherish every moment while he's young.

Priya said...

can relate to your feelings completely. I don't think I can do without the cuddles and kisses that I and my 3 years old daughter share.

McKenzie A. said...

This was an incredibly sweet read. I can really relate to it as well, being that this is my first and last child. It's important to squeeze every ounce of affection out of them that you can. <3