I too was in the throws of being sick of constantly striving for PR Perfection, getting the most social media followers, taking the best pictures, weeding through hundreds of emails a day from people flogging their "next best parenting product", and worst of all, trying to be the perfect mom.
So. Not. Me.
When I started making money blogging, everything began to change. Starting with, my tone. I wanted to work with the big companies, so I had to take it down a notch. Did you know, the word on the street is if you have the word "fu*k" in any if your blog posts, Disney will not work with you? I struggled hard with that one. I totally wanted a free Disney cruise like the big bloggers got.
I firmly believe an out loud, fu*ck, here and there is therapeutic, so I failed pretty quickly at that one. I'd rather pay for a Disney cruise then bottle up the fu*ks.
Still, I tried my best to stay in the good girl blogger box on all other accounts. I followed the big bloggers and did what they did. I was more focused on being PR Perfect then why I blog in the first place.
I stopped enjoying the process. I started writing to write, just to keep my traffic numbers up to get jobs. I was on auto pilot, with really bad editing skills. My fire for blogging burned out. I wanted nothing to do with First Time Mom And Dad anymore. I, essentially, quit my job and walked away.
Sure, making money doing what I love is amazing, but it's not worth losing my love for writing.
Nothing is worth that.
Then I read the mommy blogger hate article, and started thinking about the other side of being a mommy blogger, the good side. I found myself sort of defending the mommy blogger world, and thinking of all of the great things it offers both the writer and the reader. The community and camaraderie are second to none. It's the laughs, tears, tales, friendships and learning about true parenting game-changers that keep us coming back! I miss that. So. Much.
It's time to reclaim my space and get back to the basics. No more blogging for brands and PR Perfection. Starting today, I'm back full-time here, telling tales of my wild-child and crazy Aussie husband... Just like old times. The meltdown is over.